Chrisje shares her day: “Yesterday when I walked into my naturopathic doctor’s office there was a sign on the desk that read “What would you do if you weren’t afraid?”
I stood there for a moment, thought “wow wow wow I needed that today!” I know exactly what to do if I wasn’t afraid!!! I couldn’t get it out of my mind and yes what would I do if I wasn’t afraid! What am I afraid of? Getting sick, loosing my children, staying in this unhappy situation and being afraid to leave, afraid of being afraid!
And it dawned on me are we afraid of happiness, I know I am, I know what I need to change to be happy! But do I have the courage, do I really want to be happy, (I put up a good front), what if I am happy and something or someone takes it away? How bad would that be?
Certain areas of my life are very fulfilling and full of happiness but other areas are down right miserable. And I try to tell myself that is enough! Really are we supposed to be happy with enough? I don’t want to be rich I want enough to keep food on the table, roof over my head, and hit the Talbot’s sales once in a while LOL!
But really when it comes to happiness and a fulfilling life is there something like ‘enough’ to get by? I have dedicated 37 years of my life to rasing children, the youngest is leaving for college in September and when I look ahead I see nothing! And it scares me but I also know that changing that, that ball is in my camp.
And so it brings us back to happines, change it and be happy, but where does the fear of change come from, is it the fear of happiness? I know what I need to change and how to change it if I wasn’t afraid!”