Softening of my Childrens Hearts

In 1995 I left my ex-husband because of ill treatment and control issues. My children have never forgiven me, and both have estranged themselves from me.

I suffer from long term depression and would just like to be heard by both of them. They have never heard the reason as to why I left. The estrangement has been over 20 years.
Blessings.  (I am a committed Christian)