Had a prayer request for Ty back in November, 2019. Shortly thereafter, he wrote, “Since I’ve gotten sick I was thinking about all the “lasts” I may be having.
“This morning I thought about it and realized it’s not the “lasts” I was seeing but my “firsts” as I was seeing things with my eyes fully open. I realized that my whole life I was seeing things with my eyes half closed. Now I can see things for the beauty that they possess.”
The cancer was found in five lymph nodes and the doctors took one and one half-feet of his colon and intestines.
A few days ago he responded to my inquiry of how he was doing, “I’m flying out Sunday (yesterday) to see my kids and grand kids. I know I’m not handling this right… maybe more wrong than right. There’s no book to tell you how to feel… I’m just so afraid of not existing any more. It terrifies me, but I don’t have a choice ya’ know.
“I can’t right all my wrongs, as I have too many. I do believe in God and I know I will get to see my Mom and Dad but dang man a quick ending would be better than watching my life slowly ebb away… Damn Ms. H…. I’m not asking for pity… I dont know what I’m asking for… I’m trying to make things right for Rose… I don’t want her to worry or be alone… but she will be… I can’t help that or stop that…
I want… I want… I want and I don’t have time… all I can do is write… Don’t wait to fix things… don’t wait, ’cause I may have some time left – it’s not enough to right the wrongs…”
He said “Don’t wait to fix things.”